my rollercoaster of anxiety

I noticed that in my past blog posts...I have been talking about my job more than my passion for fun. For some reason working for Bank of America seems to be a pain in the hiney for me over the past year. I started with MBNA back in 1994 and last year Bank of America bought out MBNA and now I am part of BofA. Let's just say that things are alot different here. Now here we are in 2008 and a fresh new year to do it all over again. Well my manager who is the biggest slacker I have ever worked with tells me that our departments tolerance towards perfection has increased and that means that my "errors" that happen will affect my job and bonus. I was told to consider leaving this area I have been in for 8 years, and think about working in another job which would be a step backwards for me. I don't mind changes....I have a problem with my co-workers. My manager has asked my peers to audit me everyday and report back to him....now I have 4 pair of eyes reporting back. Since my manger still does not know my job after 2 years, he needs someone else to help "micro manage". He have much bigger hurdles to jump this year such as production, efficiencies, closer reporting and things that will make BofA and my 401k improve in a shaky market. I have been in several conferences with upper management trying to explain why I make mistakes....this is where I start to turn green and become the HULK. We are over staffed and they are looking to make room. I have been here the longest and my base pay might be a little higher than some around me. If I go to another department that would mean I would take a salary cut, I was told if I stay and make an occasional error...I would be fired. So...if you are put into this situation what would you do. I cannot quit or stay here.
The funny thing is that through the whole conversation I told them I was not worried...this baffled my manager and he asked me why this didn't worry me. I then explained that I have prayer support and I have my faith in Jesus Christ. He then...asked me to explain myself for personal reasons.
Monday I will be looking for a new career path within BofA. This will impact my schedule and cause me not to be with my family in the evenings. I will need to figure out a game plan. Please pray for me....I need it.

More snow....blame it on global warning.

This past week I received my first handheld gps device. I actually got this Garmin etrex Vista from work for free. I was award so many points that I could choose from a large catalog. The satellite reception at my house is dead....I cannot get cell phone reception until I leave my driveway. Ok, my focus is off. I know here in Maine we had a week of warm weather and alot of our snow has melted away and the grass/ground was showing. I am soooo eager to get out and start caching. I tried caching in four different locations...which I struck out on all four. The snow is still here...and I am going to have to wait until spring before I attempt trying it again. Geocaching for those why are scratching your heads is a worldwide Easter egg hunt that are hidden and can be found using coordinates.

SNOWING....right now it is coming down in waves of heavy white sheets. I think as a state we have more snow already than we did all last year. December was one of the coldest months recorded...and January has been one of the warmest....do we blame it on global warning, or have we not been recording event long enough to find trends and patterns. I myself do not believe in global warming and think that it is a fear tactic that keeps people on edge and controlled. For those who think global warming is real.....please help my understand why?

LOST - Season 4 is almost here

LOST - Season 4 trailer is here. I have been waiting a while for this series to pick back up. I am concerned that it might not happen on January 31st. I know that the writers guild is on strike and I am not sure if that impacts all future television and movie shows. This season 3 finale was excellent threw some of us Lost fans off our "I know what is gonna happen" ending. I have been watching Lost since it aired and have been waiting each week for the next episode to air. The plot is deep....so if you ever wanted to start watching Lost, I would recommend watching it from season 1 and take your time. There are allot of events, stories, relationships that are happening at the same time that are important or will be important in the future.